Friday, October 28, 2011

Regrets

I've always heard that most people's regrets are not the things they did, but those they didn't do. Mine are the same.

Sometimes I regret that I was a 'good girl' when I was in high school. I studied hard, read a lot, made good grades. I skipped the dances, the prom, the late nights 'cruising Broad' with boys. Ya, I regret that.

Sometimes I regret that it seemed so important to me to be a 'virgin' when I married. Somehow now that seems way over-rated. I said 'no' to a young man I truly loved when I was 16. Ya, I regret that.

Odd thoughts for a cool, rainy, fall evening I suppose. But being alone tonight, tired, and knowing full well the opportunities for that kind of joy and love are long since past, ya, tonight I have regrets.

Tomorrow, in the morning light, good sense will once again prevail, and I will realize my life is most likely better because of those 'wise decisions' way back then. But right now, ya, those regrets are strong.

Regrets .. ya, I have a few.

5 comments:

  1. Wonder why you are having such a difficult time lately emotionally...Are you having problems again physically...I'll keep you in my thoughts...don't know if that will help, but I can try...

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  2. Judy - Side effects from oral chemo meds are dragging me down, both physically & emotionally. It's temporary though! Thank you so much for your positive thoughts - yes! - they do make a difference.

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  3. Still doing an oral chemo, Judy. Two years now, three more to go if I stay clear.

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