Ooops

Ooops .. I missed Friday Flashback! I have a reason (excuse). I've been doing all the last minute preparations for my next surgery, 'nesting' of sorts. House is clean, grocery shopping done, errands run, all the things I won't be able to do for a few days, well ok, for more than a few days.

I'll be having what I hope will be my last surgery tomorrow morning. The second step of the reconstruction process .. taking out the expanders & placing the permanent implants. I'll have some minor procedures later, but this should be the last of the surgeries.

I'm excited ! Not only because I'll have boobies again, but because this marks the end of the breast cancer detour. Maybe 'detour' isn't the right word. 'Detour' indicates you divert off your regular path and at some point resume it again. I won't be resuming my regular path. I've been able to make some positive changes .. changes in attitude, changes in lifestyle, changes in faith. I'm looking forward to the new paths that lie ahead!

Holy Father, thank you for your care.
Blessed Mother, thank you for your peace.
Help me be sensitive to the needs of others
As they have so kindly been with me.

Friday Flashback - 1968 - 'Young Girl'

Young Girl
Gary Puckett & the Union Gap

Friday Flashback - 1966 - Old Blue Eyes

Strangers in the Night
Frank Sinatra

Friday Flashback - 1966 - 'Walk Away Rene'

'Walk Away Rene'
The Left Banke



And when I see the sign that
points one way
The lot we used to pass by
every day

Just walk away Renee,
You won't see me follow you back home
The empty sidewalks on my
block are not the same
You're not to blame

From deep inside the tears that
I'm forced to cry
From deep inside the pain I
I chose to hide

Just walk away Renee,
You won't see me follow you back home
Now as the rain beats down
upon my weary eyes
For me it cries

Your name and mine inside
a heart upon a wall
Still finds a way to haunt me,
though they're so small

Almost There!

Another 100cc in expanders today. Perhaps only one more time and I'll be ready for my next surgery to have the expanders removed & permanent implants put in. New boobies for Christmas .. yayyyyy! For now, I just look like I have a swollen chest, no form, just growing skin to accommodate the implants. Even with a large implant, I'll be much smaller than I was before since it has to fill in the concave area (like going from a negative B to a positive C). Even with just the expanders, my clothes look much better. I'm looking forward to finishing up!

Sweet Mother of Earth

Sweet Mother of Earth spread wide your arms to enfold us.
Rain upon our grasses, your fragrant breath rise up to greet us.

Sweet Mother of Earth spread wide your arms to enfold us.
Display your beauty in vibrant autumn colors that speak of renewal not of death.

Sweet Mother of Earth spread wide your arms to enfold us.
Past is the summer sun, refresh our hearts as you refresh the earth.

Sweet Mother of Earth spread wide your arms to enfold us.
Slow our steps, quiet our hearts, so we may bask in your embrace.

Sweet Mother of Earth.

Exhausting Day!

Took vacation day today to get some things done .. maybe I should have worked, I'm exhausted!
Started out with oil change/alignment (for da car), then a bone density test (for me), a quick stop in KMart (for socks), and then shoe shopping! I've been on a quest to find comfy dress shoes. Scored today! The bone density test is to be sure the Femara isn't causing osteoporosis. Ready for an early bedtime!

Friday Flashback - 1968 - Janis Joplin!

Piece of My Heart
Janis Joplin